Today I sit, stare at the blinking (no, not a swear word) cursor, thinking that I simply have to write something, or else my procrastination would claim another victim, and besides I owed it to my faithful readers right? ( that's right, I've finally gone totally irreparably bonkers). I have writers' block,, or Blog' ( God, I am so funny).
Anyway, if I continue in this manner, pretty soon, this page is going to feel like one of those TV sitcoms, with the weird, taped laugh tracks,,,that cackle at the most irritating times (read Always). I simply am not a very humorous person, nor a witty one, I am afraid (and no my looks have nothing absolutely, to do with it).
My tickets are here, I move out on the 30th,, I wish I could see what's coming ahead, as an adventure, but I am not naive, of this I am sure. If only I could express the fear I was feeling, the anxiety, the palpitations that keep me awake at night.
Was I indeed being stupid? To throw away this very secure job, with all its trappings and go through all the struggle, the uncertainty, the heartaches? I guess only time would tell, for sure. Contrary to what people may feel, I had a real tough time making up my mind, and telling my parents was another dreadful part of the whole thing, but as I wrote in an earlier post, they sure surprised me with how they reacted.
When I hear the belief in their voices, I just want to scream out and cry, not that it would help. I owe this one last chance, to myself, my parents, and to someone else. My relation with the Almighty has never been very special, in that I have very seldom seen any of my prayers for myself, come true, but if He's listening, or if He decides to read this blog, I would like to beg Him to try and support me through this.
I just want to do what is right, ' Touch-wood'
'Inshallah'
1 comment:
dont lose it man. everything will be fine. remember - jo jita wohhi sikander!!
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